Still chasing my magic carpet

Today they’ve been hammering and banging and ripping siding off the walls all over the apartment. Since I’m on the end that means 3 walls along with roof stomping! A neighbor who’s dog plays with mine came by with the work permit he found on the Internet. (Amazing how much the Internet shares with just anybody, I should say frightening! And Bush talks about giving up freedoms to be safe. I guess we do that on the Internet, we give up privacy so we can be free to surf! Irony just plays its nasty little roulette games perpetually.

My stress levels are through the roof completely. I don’t know if my fall yesterday or everything else has my head priming for an explosion. I don’t get headaches as a rule so that seems to heat up the stress. I’m exhausted. Even though I haven’t gone overboard on the junk today, my real urge is to head to Taco Time for fried burritos, and soft tacos or drop by my favorite Thai food joint for Phad Thai, tom kai gai, and Thai rice (Or even more!). I’ve told myself that beans and cornbread is a better choice. I don’t have any ready to “eat” food around so the fast food temptation is high. What can I say, I’m tired, I’m stressed, and I don’t want to cook I want to eat! Comfortably greasy, fried, sickeningly fat food!

I have to be honest I didn’t make cornbread, no energy. Chopped up an onion sautéed it and just dumped the black eyed peas in. Maybe later tonight I’ll have them. Ate fudge bar and drank some orange juice and I just might call it a day. I’m a food addict! Replace the heroin, alcohol, and sex food is fast, quick, cheap and almost always available. I swear I need to fast for hunger issues. I’m out of hand. I don’t’ know why fasting seems so hard lately other than the fact I feel like I’m in constant turmoil. Gotta go.

150/85 BP 75 pulse - Down -00 - Total Lost 044 - 372 till Goal
Foods Eaten:
Peanut butter cracker (only 1)
2 cookies
Black eyed peas
Orange Juice

Posted by ijellorca on September 19, 2006 5:14 PM | DIGG | del.icio.us | furl