It's trickling off again; still no fast in sight.

Well, moving along almost standing still. I’m down 2 lbs and food’s not really being planned out very well. I’ve had coffee every morning this week, which is unusual for me. I usually only drink coffee once or twice a month. For some reason it seems to hit the spot big time, and I really don’t feel hungry all day. I still eat, but not crazed when I do it. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or not. According to the book “Mega health” it’s not a good idea to drink coffee at all. Of course the author also said not to eat any flesh food: fish, poultry, red meats, pork etc. We’re supposed to just live on grains, veggies and fruit. I lost 80lbs years ago doing that. I just wish I’d stick with that, but emotional spikes send me running to really unhealthy vittles. Oh well. I’m just about done with all the perishables in the house and I’ll be able to get a few days intestinal vacationing in soon. Halloween’s heading my way and I was going to have a little party at my place but then one of my friends started into her issues of manipulation. Pretty soon the party that I was going to have here, she wanted at her place, we had to watch the movies she wanted and eat the food she wanted. Unbelievable. There’s something really creepy about people that whine to get their way in all the areas of their lives! I decided to Heck with the party, I’d rather have no one over and not cook for anyone, saves me calories anyways! I swear the older I get, the less BS I seem able to swallow.

I wish people would go see therapists when they have the health insurance to do so. Even during the major heights of my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder I didn’t “force” people to do everything I wanted. If I couldn’t do something I just stayed home, I didn’t go to other people’s homes and start up trouble! Oh I’m 43 going on 98 I tell you. I wonder how it is that I love people so much and they get so far under my skin! It sure seems sometimes that being completely antisocial would be easier somehow. I guess it’s a “God” thing that I don’t have children, and probably won’t every have any.

147/83 BP 76 pulse - Down -02- Total Lost 017 - 399 till Goal

Foods Planned: Turkey Soup, Fruit, popcorn

Foods Eaten: Turkey Soup, Coffee

Posted by ijellorca on October 20, 2006 12:43 PM | DIGG | del.icio.us | furl