What if I just trusted them?
I have been wondering this weekend, what if I just let go of the belief that everything that happened was all my fault?
What if I just decided to believe my therapist, my husband, and the other people who have been telling me for 5 years "what happened to you wasn't you fault" and "___ was the bad one, not you" ?
What if I just decided to believe the people who are being nice, instead of the jerks who told me bad things all my life?
....because I want to... I want to believe. More and more, I want to believe. My therapist, my husband, my sister, my few online friends I have... they are trustworthy. Certainly more trustworthy than the 18 year old boy who raped me. Certainly more than the other people and other boys who did bad things throughout my life... Right?
(right?)
i want to start believing the good things, for once.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Hi Sweet Gal,
I'm catching up with your blog, first time since Mom's heart bypass in July.
I so want this entry to be true for you. I so want you all to believe you are good and loveable and the bad people are to blame, not You; the boy is to blame not you. You were a child, you were young, you did NOTHING wrong. You deserve better.
Oh I wish you all would believe this.
Love and Blessings,
Judy in AZ
you're definitely right. you inspire me pilgrim.