They say its all psychsomatic. Maybe I'm just psycho.

Today I cried so hard on the way to work that I made myself sick. Not throwing up sick, I just felt like it though. I must have been getting sick anyway and crying so hard just pushed me over the edge. Now I feel like I've got the flu again. I'm so achey and stuffed up. Way to go, jo.
everything is my fault.
Carolineine, Mae, and pilgrim say its all in my head. because they don't feel as yucky as i do when THEY'RE around. well aren't they perfect. :( But I REALLY feel sick. i was feeling better until this morning. then we go and fuck up again and cause more problems with DH and feel too guilty to be allowed to live and spend the day crying on and off and now, seriously, i'm sick.
i'm good for nothing.
please do not write in the comments that this isn't the truth. you guys have no idea what a completely bad person i am and all the screwed up stuff i do. or how many problems i cause in therapy and how much stuff i ruin.

Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:


hi there jo,

i'm not going to tell you what is or isn't the truth. i can hear how much you are suffering. i think you are dealing with too much right now. maybe you can talk to pilgrim about going inpatient? or intensive outpatient (if you live close enough to a treatment center). i care and i hate seeing you hurt so much.

from pieces

I think that u should go on a vaction and go away from all the stress! Then when u get bak and u mess up just say u r sorry and that is all u can do or say!! i Hope this works!!!!!

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