March 23, 2006

No long has it been?

I haven't been pulling at all. Haven't even really thought about it even. I must be going through an easy time with my trich. I don't think I want to analyze it any more than that.

I'm very tired lately. I'm having lots of physical symptoms with the pregnancy and I'm really looking forward to not being pregnant anymore!

Things with my husband are quiet for now. I use the word "quiet" instead of "good", because there will never be a "good" with us. Just quiet vs. tumultuous.

Thanks again to everyone who posted in my journal in a constructive, kind, manner. It helps more than you know.

And to the negative person who posted: YOU'RE NOT WORTH IT. Instead of attacking me publicly, why not take it privately? My e-mail is If you have something to say, let's say it there, okay?

Anyone is welcome to use that e-mail address. I check it as often as I can. Thanks again everyone.

Posted by Cody on March 23, 2006 12:11 PM


Wow! Cody, I spent half the night last night reading your story. I just wanted to say that you are an amazing woman. My heart goes out to you, aches for the things you've endured, and I am in awe of your strength and determination. You are an incredible woman, and your children are so lucky to have you!
I myself don't suffer from Trich, in fact, I'd never heard of the disorder before I found your site (although I have dealt with a family member who has trich...another time). I have major depression, IBS and hypoglycemia. But I feel lke something led me to you, for so many reasons. Reading your story helped me realize that I don't have to live my life feeling powerless, as though my life is being controlled by the things that affect my body and my mind. I have so many compulsions that I am constantly fighting, and seeing you conquer your battles with pulling over and over really inspired me. I know how hard it is to get up each day and struggle not to give into the impulses that are constantly in my head. It gives me hope to know there is someone else out there who is so strong, to fight this battle each and every day, no matter how hopeless it may seem. Because it's NOT! You've done so good! We are all only human, we all screw up sometimes, and we all have victories over ourselves. I'm so excited for you to continue to be pull free. I'm also very excited for you to give birth to your son. My dear friend IRL just had a baby boy 3 months ago, and I know that little boys are such blessings. You already have a beautiful daughter who I know is such a strength to you. I can't wait to see how you will both become better because of your son in your life. Little babies are such a wonderful gift from God, the closest thing we get to angels.
Sorry, I know I've been babbling on. I just woke sorry if everything I say doesn't make sense :)
This might sound kinda weird, but I dreamt about you, about your strength, and about the amazing woman you are, such a beautiful and generous person. You ARE a great mother, and your children are so blessed to have you. Anyway, i just wanted to let you know that your story has touched me, and I am here for you, cheering you on, and taking strength from your victories. You have blessed me in ways you will never know. I mourn for your marriage, because I know how hard it can be to be unhappy with the person you chose to spend your life with. But I realized, from your accounts of his cruelness and abuse, that I really am lucky. My husband can be stupid sometimes, and very ADHD, but he is a good husband, and I have been taking that for granted lately. You helped me open my eyes to see the wonderful man that I have in my life. Though my heart goes out to you and aches because of the man who has disappointed you, I am also very grateful that your words helped me to see my husband for who he really is.
Ok, now I've really rambled on. I am hoping to get my own journal thing set up here soon, because (in case you haven't noticed) I have a lot inside me that I need to get out :) So, I hope that from all this you are able to see that I truly do respect you, and how you are living with what the Lord has given you. You are such a beautiful, strong woman, and I feel as though I know you so well. I am cheering for you! Feel free to email me anytime. I will keep you updated on my own journal. Have a beautiful day Cody! Thank you for sharing your life with me :)
Love and hugs,

wow I was just searching the internet and came across your journal and finally so releaived to find someone else who seems to do this "odd thing".
I frist started showing signs of Trich when I was five years old (I am twenty) but family thought it was just something silly I was doing only in recent weeks I have discovered this "thing" I have actually has a name.

I feel inspired by what you have written and wish you all the best with your life and with no more pulling!
also I hope you enjoy your baby =D

- Sash

I just read your diary and it all sounds to familiar,i am a 26 year old mother of one who has been fighting trich since i was 14 years old...only last year when i got the internet did i realise actually how many people suffered with this!,now i want to beat this and in the process help others too,i have recently started a message board for helping,supporting and some tips,my story is on there too.I have just put a chatroom in there and i would be very interested in talking and making friends with others who have this horrid disorder.Good luck and best wishes to all.
If you are interested in chatting here is the link

:) Tash x

Ok, I'm in the UK for a start, and I recently discovered my "freaky fetish" wasn't all that uncommon, I discovered it had a name, and I discovered I'm not alone in the world. I have been pulling my hair for about 11-12 years now, I'm nearly 22 and I don't know about anyone else, but this thing irritates the living shit out if me. I'm sick of baldy bits and sore fingers, and I'm glad I can post messages on a site by a PERSON with the same thing, because when I type I'm not pulling, and I feel better for getting it off my chest a bit too. So Cody, I would just like to say thanks for putting up this bloggy thingy where I can keep my hands occupied and gain freedom of mind and a sense of peace! Oh by the way your husband sounds like a wanker get rid of him you've got your sister to help with the little ones! I've just dumped my boyf of 5yrs and I realised a lot of my hair-pulling revolved around him albeit unconsciously, but I feel so much better because the iron around my neck has gone. I started pulling my hair long before he came on the scene, but typical bastard never treated me well, knocked my self-esteem, and generally was miserable to be around, of which I would sit there staring at the box pulling my hair, while my rage would turn inward from him to myself because I was pulling, of which he'd have a go at me for it and call me a freak, and so the cycle continued. Also I have a very similar scenario, he's never gotten physical simply because I would give as good as I got too! I decided I wasn't happy, never was going to be with him and for now (it's only been three weeks) I don't want to be involved with anyone else, I want to focus on me, starting with the hair issue. I've always pulled my hair directly from the root too. Anyway, you've given me a boost on the old hope front, I was starting to think I'd never be able to tackle this issue and was nearly in tears looking for info when I found your site, so thanks again! I admire your strength of character and will-power, I will draw on mine from that. (sounds very shaolin doesn't it?)
Big hug and a last thanx all the way from the UK!!
Mayan xx

Thank you everyone for your comments. I feel very uplifted today...and I needed that in a very big way! Thank you thank you thank you.

My e-mail is if anyone ever wants to e-mail me. I might be busy, but I will definitely try to write back. I definitely appreciate such positive feedback. It makes me feel so much better about myself!

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