July 06, 2004

Recovering from a disaster..

I almost always find that when I have a disastrous day it takes me about 2 days to get over it. That also means that it takes me 2 days to work on getting myself to eat....my appetite usually goes out the window....as the saying goes.

I'm now back up to speed, still nervous about my job, but doing ok. I will be seeing my T this week and I hope to continue to make some progress in the ana eating area. I feel somewhat hopeful that I can gain at least a little ground with this T as she herself did battle with an eating disorder. I've been almost chronically anorectic for 35 years. I manage to barely keep my weight at a healthy minimum...but most people agree that I could use a little extra weight.

I don't mind a few extra pounds....what is important to me is that it's not just flab. I do a Pilates style exercise video every morning and if I gain weight I want it to be proportionate and have it be well toned muscles. I hope that's not asking too much! If I'm going to get bigger I just want it to be muscle.

Posted by Kathy on July 6, 2004 07:52 AM