Always Wondering About the Fallout
I'm depressed now. I'm not sure if it's full-fledged clinical depression, but it's been going on for about two and a half weeks. I might just be stressed and overworked, overdoing it and maybe tired.
I'm still meeting my obligations. But I'd really rather just be in bed.
But I can't sleep.
And of course I can't help wondering if it's that dreaded "hysterectomy" depression. Of course it's been well over a year. And I've often experienced these blues ... about every three or four years, though usually in January or February (probably seasonally related to the lack of sun, hormonal fluctuations and post-holiday blahs).
But I'm sure if I'd had a myomectomy or was just riding out the fibroids I'd think that it was something related to those decisions. I'm never going to know. There's no magic box that shows you how these things would be if you'd taken that different path.
Posted by Elizabeth M. on November 19, 2005 08:26 PM