September 17, 2009


I do not know what to do. I need the painkillers to maintain a normal life, and yet I need to get off them because I am doing things that are not my character generally and I know that. There have been so many major stressors in my life lately and I have been taking way to many to numb emotional pain as well. I just do not want to live anymore. That is the way I feel 90% of the time now. I have been to depressed lately to even know what is right for me and what is not. No one even tries to understand especially my husband. he does not want to take any responsibliity for this even though I will not betray my family by posting what happened just take my word for it it is BAD and it is not that he had an affair with some strange woman it is way worse than that. My life and my mind are in such turmoil right now.........

Posted by Lisa on September 17, 2009 7:31 AM