On a roller coaster
Was gone on another getaway. Finally home, where I belong.
Its been a roller coaster week. Day. Hour. Lots of switching going on. So I can't really give an update about what I've been doing, because I'm not sure. Kids have been out, playing and having fun, touched a snake at the zoo, playing outside, and learning new things. Others have been triggered into flashbacks again. Something happened that brought back a lot of hard stuff. I've been really out of it.; The body memories are so strong. My body seems to have a mind of it's own and I'm worried.; I've worked hard to eat better and recover from an eating disorder, but now, due to some stuff that's happened this week, I can't eat. My throat refuses to swallow much, and everything that does go down tastes horrible. Then sits in my stomach like concrete. The only thing that seems to go down ok is an icy cold drink like diet pepsi. I dont want my metabolism to get screwed up again. Forcing myself to eat proves difficult but I am really trying. So much is going on inside. I am overwhelmed.
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