Thought I was going mad. I lose time quite frequently. At first I thought maybe alzhiemers? I have had more than a few scary incidents. For instance, driving. Head to the store and end up portland Oregon when I live in Washington. Not knowing exactly where I am when I finally realize I had driven for over an hr. Missing items such as money, ciggerettes, food and misc. items. I keep thinking I am losing it because I am definatley losing time. reciepts for gas and various purchases yet having nothing to show for these reciepts. I am flustered so if you figure out whats wrong with you LOL you can maybe give me a hollar and tell me I am not crazy after all because sometimes I feel like a real jack ___.

I know EXACTLY what you mean!

It has even happened to me at work. There was a time when I was doing some fact checking on a report. This involved looking up information from various tedious sources.

In any case, I felt an attack coming. I then had an urge to place my head on this thick book that was lying on my worktable. I did so and it must have all went blank from then on.

Next thing I knew, I was jolted into consciousness by my boss shaking me vigorously and gesticulating wildly, somewhat like a madman. I looked at the little clock on my desk and sure enough I had lost time yet again.

its been happening to me to and its scaring the absoulte shit out of me. i just zone out and wake up half an hour later with it feeling like 2 seconds has passed. what is happeneing?

not only that but im questioning my own take on reality. am i imaging half the things i do, people i see?? it hurts that i dont know whats what anymore.

help me.

i've lost time on a few occasions. the worst was when i had later been told that i had said that i had telepathic yes telepathic sex with a minor in a fast food restuarant. i have no memory of picking up any one or anything let alone having anything telepathic. its happened before and i pray it doesn't again. both times i was on drugs. you know its happened because you find people give you reports of what you said and did. i have had very bad psycotic episodes and this "telepathic sex" was the worse. don't worry though all i apparantly did was pick up a child and spoke in tongues, a christian thing, but i reponse to that i was locked up in a secure ward for 3-4 months and found myself trying to guess what to say. i couldn't say anything because i didn't have any recolation. i remember basically everything but that so it wosn't necessarily the psycotic espisode but something deep in the mind. all i do is wonder why i would havesaid such a thing or even do such a thing. but it almost drove me to take my own life. maybe i'm still being classified as a threat to children or something but i have no desires towards them but having to check by meditation was difficult by i see them still as beauty in innocence and would never conciuosly do anything to ahrm a child. but know i wonder what if it happens again. i think it was blown out of all preportion. why to psyk doctors not see that its madness and being mad though not completly losing control is completly different and not comparable to there own minds.

the other incident was when my friends told me that i had walked passed them in a rave and not said anything. i don't remember a thing.

but a near successful suicide attempt in between those two incidents leaves me believing in gaps in my memories where very strange figments of darkness remain. and endless questions.

what happens to me i have no idea but if it has a name could someone email it. i suppose the closest thing to it is ameasea but that isn't the whole picture