The similarities are eery to trichotillomania

I was just reading my sister's diary (no I am not poking through her things! She writes Life with Trich here on Health Diaries)--- and something she wrote last night caught my eye:

It's hard to describe the feeling that comes over me when I want to pull. It's almost like my heart pounds, my head is swimming, my eyes are open but not focusing on anything. I'm just there inside my head, wanting some relief from all the noise around me. I can get myself out of that place, it's just hard to do.

That is her experience--- and how she copes is by pulling her hair (although not for weeks and weeks now, hurray!! and she has this VERY cool new haircut!!)

Those words are exactly the same thing I would write, but here is how I would change it just a bit:

It's hard to describe the feeling that comes over me when I need to switch /(dissociate). It's almost like my heart pounds, my head is swimming, my eyes are open but not focusing on anything. I'm just there inside my head, wanting some relief from all the noise inside me. I can't get myself out of that place, it's just hard to do.

I wonder what determined which direction each of us would take? Why did my sister start pulling her hair, and I created 10 other people inside myself?

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