Showing that I can handle things better

Wow, what a rough morning.
I think I am helping one of the little inside ones learn to trust me and hopefully strengthening our relationship.
One of the things I've learned I need to do is not only tell the people inside that they can trust me but also ACT in ways that show them they can trust me now. I am trying to show them I am strong and can handle my life now.

We go to a very cool church. Today was a big celebration and goodbye because our pastor is moving. Parting with people is probably the hugest trigger for me and I could tell that the 5 year old was really worked up. There have just been WAY TOO MANY TIMES that people have gone away (on purpose or by accident or whatever reason) and there was no goodbye and that I just got left hanging without even knowing someone was leaving or that a person just disappeared or got taken away or got killed in an accident or killed themselves or lots of different things. And there just wasn’t a goodbye.
So today at church I made SURE that I went up to our pastor (got myself in front of a thousand people as fast as I could) and told him thank you and gave him a hug and looked him in the eyes and told him goodbye. That helped a lot. That also helped the little one calm down faster. I know its important to her to get to say goodbye to people too. Last week at the hospital a friend left and she didn’t get to say goodbye and that brought all kinds of hard stuff for her and we stopped eating. On Friday morning when some of her other friends left I made sure to say goodbye to them which made things go better.

I hope that this will help build some more trust inside. I want to make things better for the inside people who are still living in the past and having a hard time.

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1. Posted by judy on May 23, 2005