Decision
Today I did something for which I'm actually kind of proud of myself.
Something I've been wanting to do for a long time, contemplated, fumbled around about, put off, wondered about "what would it be like?"
So today I finally made a decision, and did something Ive been wanting to do for years. It was scary. Something I thought I'd never have the courage to do.
To most people, it would probably be something small. Not a huge deal. But to me, it was something I built up and up and up in my mind until it became much more than it actually was. This simple thing I did today had become a symbol for my past, for things I was tied to, for ideas I couldn't let go of, for things I was afraid of, an image I felt I needed to hold on to.
But today I let go.
And did something I was afraid to.
And it was hard, and scary. And i just DID it. It was my decision. Not anyone inside, not Carolineine or Missy or Mae or Tuck... it was MY decision... PILGRIM.
It felt good.
In spite of the fact that in reality, my insides are in turmoil and I am having an incredibly hard time right now, I am still capable of taking care of myself. How about that.
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Hey sweet gal!
I'm proud of you too. You are amazing. I'm glad you were able to face something and do it yourself in spite of fear and it being YOUR choice. You are amazing!
Love ya, judy