I'm so afraid
Maybe this is all irrational but I feel so afraid that my chest hurts, my stomach hurts, my head hurts, and I feel like I could become unglued at any second. Or have a headache. My chest is so tight.
Tomorrow we have to go to the dentist. Of whom we're absolutely terrified. We only go every few y ears, when our husband realizes how long its been and makes us go. I hate to go especially. Mae too. Its terrifying to have someone put things in my mouth. They shove those instruments in there, and do that suction thing. Its too much like bad stuff that happened with my ex boyfriend. Even though I keep telling myself, "This is not then! There's nothing happening NOW" I still can't convince myself once they've got those dang buzzing instruments sucking and clawing at my mouth. And I know that Mae will be in total terror, even if I hold myself together, she's going to be in the background inside screaming her head off like a maniac because no matter how hard I try to convince her that we'll survive, she's going to be having flashbacks of her own.
Then assuming we survive the dentist, we're getting on an airplane with our husband and going on vacation for a week. Hopefully it will be okay. It is still scary whenever we're away from home and away from the safety of our schedule and routine, the safety of our own bed and our pets. It takes a lot of energy to be out there in the world and try to pretend to be normal.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
With any kind of medical or mental problem it is essential to have your thyroid checked. A full thyroid panel should be done including TSH, TPO(very important as this diagnosis is the most common) T4 and T3, Free T4&Free T3 and possibly rT3.Thyroid is most likely the cause of 80% or more of every problem a person can have. If your doctor refuses, most do, look for one who will test and treat you as the longer it goes untreated the worse problems get. It is used by every cell in the body and anything can go wrong teeth hair, hearing, digestion etc. The early symptoms are any type of alergy, stomach pain or digestive problems, weight gain, and fatigue. It is also associated with cancer. Be alert for signs of celiac disease(alergy to gluten).Look up new recommended guidelines from the AACE dated 2003, go to ithyroid and begin researching this disease.
Hi Pilgrim
I have a real problem going to the dentist too because of my memories of oral rape when I was maybe Mae's age, around three-four. I was able to tell one trusted dentist this and to devise a signal for all parts that would mean "stop", so that I and the others inside could feel in control. Are there any grounding techniques you can use with Mae, holding on to a favourite thing during the treatment for example.
I am really sorry you are going through this and wish you courage. You already have a huge lot of bravery for deciding to go to the dentist.
Anna
Hi Pilgrim,
I'm experiencing chest pains too, because I fear a person who will be in town this weekend. I dislike the dentist too, and I guess my whole body is trying to tell me to steer clear of these two people. I haven't made my dental appointment yet either. You're not alone.
Hug,
Susana
It's not irrational. You should ask your T to find a dentist that she can talk to and tell them you're DID. It'll help!