Do we stay or go?
This has been a really,really stressful school year. To keep privacy I can't give details, but things have been very hard all year. Even at the beginning of the year, long before the stress of losing our therapist, we were so stressed out and running around so much at work all the time that we were losing weight and having problems handling things.
Well things have gotten a little better, finally. Missy kept sticking up for us at work, and we got some help that we needed. The stress at work is easing up. Next year will be a lot different because several kids in the class (the ones who are the most stressful) won't be there anymore. Of course, there are always new ones to replace them.
Since about November we've considered changing jobs. Doing something other than teaching. We've got our resumes listed in a few places and are looking at specific jobs. Its tempting and we've got a list of pros and cons going. There are positives and negatives of staying and leaving. Its a really difficult decision-- thankfully one we don't have to make yet.
The past few months we have gotten better at handling stress. We've discovered some really cool bubble bath made from pure essential oils that really help. We've learned some ways to work inside together much better. At Shades of Hope we learned some tricks to handle the flashbacks and each other and how to set internal boundaries. And of course the fact that we're eating better is helping too. There are other things too.
So as with everything else in our life right now, we're waiting things out...praying like crazy and waiting to find out what we're supposed to do.
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My advice to you, dear, would be to keep on referring to yourself as "I" and not "we." Keep thinking of yourself that way because that's what you truly are, one person. I notice in some of your posts you do that, and that's because deep down you know you are one person. It may feel like the others are real, but believe me they aren't. And the more you're in therapy that only separates you more, the worse you get. Have regular therapy with someone good and talk about real issues in your life. You WILL get better.