I want so much to dance again.

We used to dance on Friday afternoons with the kids in our class. We'd put these funky nursery rhymes or the ABC song on and jump around and dance and act silly as a fun and crazy way to end a hard week of work in our classroom.
We haven't done that since the beginning of January because I just haven't felt like dancing anymore. With not eating much either, there's not much energy in me to walk or run either, let alone dance with a group of preschoolers for half an hour.
I want that back so much. I miss it.
Tonight I was at a Christian conference where thousands of people were singing praise music. I was singing too. I mean the words. I believe the words. I kept praying and praying for God to make my feet feel like dancing again. Like the other people were. Instead my eyes kept tearing up. I'd try praying again. I know prayer works-- I'd have some prayers answered this week. And I want so much to feel like dancing again like we used to. I don't want to keep feeling like this-- alone and lonely and lost in a crowd of thousands of people who all seem to know something I don't. I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to dance again so much. I want to feel happy again so much.

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