October 11, 2005
Rainy days and Mondays AKA My Magic Online Username
I haven't written here in quite some time.
I wish I could say that is because I have not been affected by my depression in the time that I have been away, but alas, it is not so.
My life isnt really bad.
But that's what sucks.
My life has NEVER been bad.
And yet, I can never fully get a grip on that elusive happiness.
It really frustrates me to see that happiness seems to only elude me.
Sure, I know that everyone has a bad day or two.
But other people bounce back from their bad days.
Mine just extend on and on.
I'm worried because I am definitely worse during the dark days of winter.
And winter is coming.
So I'm trying to set myself up a healthy pattern now that doesn't depend on the weather.
I will be writing more.
Maybe here, maybe not.
I've got the gym in my future.
I know it's going to take more than that.
But it's a start.
Posted by Rai on October 11, 2005 04:03 PM