Trauma group therapy assessment tomorrow
There is this group at the Womens Center that my therapist has wanted me to join, well they finally got ahold of me today, the group starts June 20th and runs for 6 weeks. But they want me to come in for an assessment first. Friday at 1:15
TOMORROW!!
This is a group for trauma survivors-- not a group for people with DID.
There is a T in charge of the group, she wants to meet with me tomorrow for a little bit, and also fill in some paperwork. I am SO SCARED. What if I switch in front of her? How much should I let her know? What if we get too switchy? ETC ETC
I will be signing a consent form so they can talk to my T of course once the group starts.
I left 2 panicky messages for my T today and I asked her what should i do, what should I say? But I haven't heard anything from her. My T has something going on with her daughter tomorrow, and will be out of the office Mon & Tues, so I know I won't get to talk to her at all this weekend. I dont see her til Wednesday.That is forever away. And I doubt she will be checking e mail this particular weekend. She hasn't called me or emailed me. I was really hoping she would. It was so STUPID of me to even leave her messages!!! She probably thinks I'm stupid. She has 800 better things to do. I wish that my T could be available when I need her.I feel so DUMB. I wish I could talk to her. I wish I could figure out on my own what to do.
I'm so scared about tomorrow. What if they think I'm too weird and don't want me in their group? What if ________ (insider a myriad of fears, rational AND irrational, here)
My heart is hurting a lot tonight. It hurts more whenever I get stressed out. Plus I have the flu. I feel so alone and I wish so much I had a friend to talk to. I wish so much that I could just sit with a friend and talk things out until maybe I'm not so panicky, until the urge to cut passes, or at least until I can calm myself down. I'm so lonely. My dog is laying at my feet, but he's asleep and I dont think he'd make a very good listener right now.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Is it possible for you to see your t more then once a week? Generally, with people with DID it's indicated to see them at least twice a week... I don't think your stupid, or that it was stupid of you to leave her messages. She wouldn't have given you her email and said it's okay if it wasn't. I've been in mixed groups (mainly in-patient, but also out-patient) before, and it's really not that bad. I would tell the group therapist some time soon, though.