Summer...humidity...and YUCK (but no pulling)

I don't think I've ever mentioned on this journal how much I HATE humidity in summer. One would think it wouldn't get that humid here, but it DOES. Yuck. When it gets humid, I don't even want to go outside. When you go outside in this kind of weather, you sweat and smell and get sticky. The kids get sticky. You don't even want to touch anyone because then you'd be double sticky. This is the only thing I don't like about summer...when the humidity rolls in.

If I had much hair, I would probably complain about it drooping in the humidity. BUT...I don't have that much hair. Dammit.

I still haven't been pulling. The other night I did pull five eyelashes but that was all. I wish I hadn't done that, but I'm not going to beat myself up about it now. There is a pretty big gap in my eyelashes on my one eye...I hate to look at it. But i can see the little eyelashes struggling to grow through now. That makes me feel better. My dream is to be able to go without eyeliner and not look funny. I don't know if this will ever happen. But, at least the hair on my head is growing in and feeling softer already. I think I've been about ten days pull free. I like how my hair feels. I don't want to start pulling again now.

Thinking positively, I've thought that maybe I am getting closer each day to kicking this trich for good. I've stopped pulling many times just in the past three years. In fifteen years of pulling, I've never been pull free so much. Maybe one day I'll be able to stop for good?

I lost the 3.8 pounds I gained at WW last week. I am down 5.2 for my first month. That's not too bad. I can't lose too much too fast or I could damage Jamie's milk supply. And boy does he love to nurse. He weighs fourteen pounds now and is eleven weeks old. Time does fly! He smiles all the time now and he is just so darn SWEET.

Well, I need a snack. I'm starving. I think that nursing a baby AND trying to lose weight is probably the hardest thing anyone would want to do. Nursing gives you this APPETITE that will not quit. Sucks.

Until next time!

Posted by Cody on July 26, 2006 10:46 AM