Many weeks pull-free, and good bye to a friend
I've been pull-free for so many weeks that I'm not sure how many it's been! I'll have to look back on my journal to know for sure.
Actually, I have pulled about five times during this "pull-free" period. But instead of freaking out about it, I just let it go. Let it be. Didn't focus on it. Picked myself up and started again, realizing that for just a moment I let my guard down and did something I didn't want to do. Put my guard back up. And got ready to enjoy my life again having hair!
My bad spots are 3/4 the length of the rest of my hair now. I look in the mirror and I can't believe it. It doesn't seem real. My hair has grown so fast this summer. I want to get a hair cut. A pretty one. But I'm afraid. Afraid of what the hairdresser might say. Or afraid that my face will look even puffier with less hair. Not sure what to do! I have to think and pray on it for a few days before I can decide.
We had a dog for the past sixteen months...a golden retriever we named Sam. He wasn't an easy dog, being very high energy and fun loving. He grew up and got too big for our small house. Too much energy for our small yard. Needing to much love for my small heart. So I gave him a new home with an elderly man who lost his best friend (a rottweiler) of 14 years. Sam never left this man's side the whole time he was here. And I knew that Sam had found his person. And it hurt, because I wanted to be his person. I could have been, without all these other circumstances. I told him goodbye yesterday, with his big goofy head hanging out the passenger side window of this man's truck. I told him to sit down and be good and just love his new person.
Good bye goliath poos in the backyard. No more of those to clean up. Good bye giant fluff balls of fur. Good bye eating my plants in the backyard in the winter. Good bye gentle brown eyes and dopey smile. Good bye big warm body lying across my legs at night while I"m doing my homework. I think I'll miss that the most.
Until next time.
Posted by Cody on July 26, 2008 3:40 AM