Still pulling hair and eyelashes
I am still pulling my hair and eyelashes right now. I had one or two days where I was nearly pull-free and then I crashed and burned each evening. I have been pulling so much lately. I even have started pulling from the top of my head again, which I swore I would not do anymore. I can see it's thinning on the top. I really really want to stop this. Today I'm wearing a hat to keep my hands away from the area. I just need to apply more effort to stop pulling.
I've been pulling my eyelashes too...maybe 2-3 a day. But that adds up and my pretty lashes are thin again. ARGh. So far today I haven't pulled on. But the days are easy, it's the evenings that are tough.
I feel overwhelmed lately with work and family. I think I'm just anxious for spring and I'm feeling down with the cold temperatures, wind, ice, snow, and rain. I just want beautifully long green grass and gentle breezes. The months of May and June are my favorite next to October. The only difficult thing about this spring is the fact that Prince won't be here to enjoy it with me.
It's been almost three months since Prince passed away, but I feel his abscence still everyday. I miss him. I miss his gentle face. When I fed at night, it was more important to him that he see me instead of eating his food first. He had the most gentle, liquid-y eyes. Wise old eyes. I miss them. But as time passes I feel the freedom he feels now. No more pain. No more leg bandaging. No more measuring of medication for morning and evening feed. No more worries about the farrier being able to trim his feet while standing up. He's free. And I will see him again...just not yet.
One of my kitties ran away early this week while I was trying to take him to the vet. His collar broke and he ran loose. I was taking him to the vet to be neutered. :-( I called and called him, passed out fliers and put up signs, but no one has seen him. I miss him. I miss the way he bugged me while I was on the computer. There's still a chance he'll be found, but he's an un-neutered male in a wide-open country world here, and he's missing his collar. I just pray that he will find his way home.
Everything else seems to be okay here. My babies are doing fine. I've been keeping Sammie home from preschool even when she's not really too sick to go. I'm not sure why. I feel more comfortable with her home in the house. I miss her when she's gone! But, she really does need to go to preschool. Next week will be a new start. She's just been overtired lately because I let her stay up too late each night. Jamie is great...still fussy but at least he is crawling now and he's not as fussy as he was. He is so much fun to be with, but very exhausting! I feel like I can't do as much with Sammie as I would like to, because of always having to watch what Jamie is doing. Ah well. This too shall pass.
I'm seeing a new doctor now. He's very young and very nice and open to the things I have to say. We switched my medication from 20 mg Prozac to 50 mg Zoloft. We both believe it's safer for nursing.
Next week I'm planning on making some changes. I'm going to go back to Weight Watchers EVERY WEEK no matter WHAT. I bought a monthly pass which renews every month on its own and entitles me to go to any meeting and use all the on-line tools. Sammie will go to preschool two days next week and three days each week after that. Summer is coming and she will be BORED. Now is the time to go to school. :-) Samme, Jamie and I will go to our first MOPS meeting on Wednesday. I need to get out and be with other moms and socialize. I feel like I'm smothered here.
So, those are my plans. I really want to be more positive and stop living in fear of everything. It's getting very tiring.
Until next time!
Posted by Cody on March 2, 2007 11:46 AM
Trich,
I just came across your blog today. I have been struggling with eyelash and eyebrow pulling for quite a few years. Perhaps you can give me some tips. I want to try to go one day without pulling but I need someone to report to...someone to hold me accountable...
Hi Cody,
My name is Shaina Feinberg. I am a trich sufferer too. Though I have now been pick-free for just over a week! I am a writer and I live and work in New York City. I have had some form of trich since I was in 6th grade...I am now 30 years old. I am really interested in hearing the stories of other women who suffer from trich and possibly doing some kind of piece--either written or radio--about trich sufferers. If you'd like to tell me more about your story, I'd be very glad to listen. Email me at shainafeinberg@gmail if you would like chat.
Thanks!
Shaina
Hi! I just found this site because I was seaching about eyelashes growing back. I too am a tric sufferer - for me it is mostly my eyelashes and for me too, it is worse in times of stress - currently i have several lash bald spots - I do pretty well covering it up with eyeliner (which I would wear anyway) but it's still embaressing - even when I'm the only one who knows about it really! I've finally told my boyfriend and my therapist about it - which is a relief of sorts but it's hard because I feel like such a freak - what a strange thing to not be able to control, you know? But it is finidng websites like this and realizing that there are A LOT of other people that do the same thing that helps me feel a little less alone in my oddball compulsion to pluk out my lashes - They do grow back but I am always afraid that one day i will have damaged them too much and they will stop. Fals eyelashes are a pain and seem like too much work and they LOOK fake most of the time. Honestly, I will look at people's eyelashes whereever I go and be jealous - when they are there and I can stop from plucking them, mine are so nice- they are dark and long and compliment my eyes so well, but I just can't stop myself - I'll even be telling myself to stop while plucking sometimes. it's so hard, and so frustrating! Anyway, thanks for your courage for writing this blog and helping all of us eyelash pullers feel at least a little bit less like freaks!
I started pulling out eyelashes when I was in 2nd grade. A kid in my class had an eyelash on his face and the teacher told him to make a wish and blow it away.
So every once in great while I'd pull one out to make a wish. I always had full long beautiful lashes....
Then when I started wearing makeup if I didn't have eye makeup remover I'd pull the mascara off of my lashes.
But I didn't really have problems. It wasn't until last October when I started habitually pulling out my eyelashes. It started with the sensation of having soming in my eye. (like an eyelash) Then it went from me pulling out the eyelash, and then it ended up turning into me sitting in the bathroom for hours picking at my eyes until they became puffy, watery, and red.
I ended up picking out so many eyelashes that I had bald spots. At first just one eye, then both, then I pulled them all out to make them look even. Then I went from the top to the bottom. I stopped for awhile, and then they grew back completely. That lasted for a month, and then I did it again. It turned into a habit because when the lashes grow back they poke at your eyes.....
At the same time I was started pulling out my lashes I went to shape up my eyebrows, and I ended up making them crooked. I ended up trying make them balanced and ended up plucking them down to almost nothing, and then just plucked them all out. I don't do the eyebrow thing anymore, but eyebrows don't grow back like eyelashes. (plus you have to pluck the ones that grow back in odd spots...) My eyebrows are still in the process of returning to normal, but I don't care so much about that because it's not noticable like not having EYELASHES. I pick at little "chin hairs" or "cheek hairs" because I'm paranoid that I'll have these long hairs on my face like my mom and sister.... In fact I have calloused fingertips from where I pull at non-existant hairs.
But back to eyelashes...
I went from pulling them out with my fingers to using tweezers. I'll stop for a few days and pluck the regrowth, or I'll stop for 2 weeks and they'll almost be back to normal (well where you look like you have all your eyelashes, but just shorter) and then my eyes will start bothering me (it feels like something is in it) and I'll start pulling them out again.........
I go places and look at other people's eyelashes, and wonder if they can tell I don't have any. If I'm standing in front of someone and I can see their's, are they able to tell about mine?
2 people I know asked me about it on 2 separate occasions, and I was embarrassed and self conscious. I don't like people getting to close to me now for fear they'll notice.
I used to never be like this at all! Like I said it all started last October, and has been going off and on for almost a year.
And in the past couple of months I've been having trouble breathing, and I'll have to sigh and yawn to get a breath. I get light headed and achey, and my heart palpitates. (I guess I developed an anxiety disorder) But in my defense, when I went to the doctor last week for swollen lymph nodes, and strep they told me my lungs weren't at full capacity. I also had a miscarriage back in June, and at that time my doctor told me I had a low platelette count..........Anyway, most all of the things I've been talking about is caused by nerves. But this eyelash thing has got to stop! The anxiety is getting worse. I can't stop thinking that everyone will notice...
I've been contemplating on whether or not to get falsies, but I'm scared when I go to remove them they'll pull out any regrowth.
I hope when you guys read this you'll be able to relate. That's one nice thing ab
MOPS.... mothers of preschoolers?
Moms On Prozac Sedation?
Murdurous Off Prescription Sedatives?
???? explain please. hee hee.
I hope the Zoloft helps.
Sit on your hands or learn to knit or something and stop pulling your hair, ding dong. ;) (Yah, I know, and I just need to eat, right? )
I miss Prince too. So much.
So how young is your new doctor? is he cute?