May 20, 2005

dieing

I am not suicidal, I've just been thinking about death, like what happens to you after you die., not the actual process of dieing, but what happens after you die. Usually friends and family throw a funeral service for you. What happens though when you are an orphan and have no family like me? Do they simply throw you away or donate your body to science? Do you sit in the morgue till theres nothing left of you? When I die I want to be cremated and buried with a lil head stone that concrete angel written on it. I'm not sure I even want to be buried. Death I think is the only time I am really going to be truely free. I cant wait to go home to a place where I am loved. I dont want to die now but at the same time, I cant say that I wouldnt jump at the chance to go if I could and that I knew that I wasnt gonna go to hell. I guess no one really knows that though for sure. Life is soo complicated.


Amy

Posted by Heavensdaughter on May 20, 2005 05:31 AM

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Sweet Heavens,
Our Dear Lord and Savior Jesus Christ will welcome you, from life to new life...you will experience no death.. Yes, your body will be disposed of, write your wishes down and hopefully someone would take care of it.
You are gonna be around a long time and you have 2 daughters who will grow before your eyes in a blink, like my Jen did (birth to 19 in a blink).
You are not all alone.
I understand you feeling that in death you will find peace. When it's your time, you will find Peace and Unconditional Love and be welcomed by the Lord our God Himself. I believe this with every fiber of my being. I have had suicidal thoughts, esp. during recent med change, yet suicide is a sin against ourselves and God. He will help us to endure and we will get through our troubles with His strength and guidance, whether we recognize it as such or not.
"be not afraid, for I am with you always,"--GOD
Hugs, Judy

Posted by: judy at May 21, 2005 01:51 AM

I have to thought about dieing I am not a church going person but I have ask Jesus into my heart. It scares me to think of what happens when we die. Is there really a heaven or hell or do you just get put in the ground to rot?I often wonder this. people try to tell me there is a heaven and that is were I will go when I die if I have asked Jesus into my heart and I always just nod my head and keep wondering and I still and always will wonder we all just have to see for our selfs I guess but you are not ALONE in you thoughts. And if you ever want to talk to some one my e-mail adress is above if you write I will write back I wish I could settel your thought but I think everybody think the same thing now and then your friend KRISTI

Posted by: Kristi at April 26, 2006 08:53 AM

Ok you two, as hard as life gets at times, as deep and dark as the hole of depression goes, there is a way out and it's not death. God doesn't save us to give up on life. When you're in that deep dark hole and you've gone as far as you can go, there is only one way to look and that is up. I've been there, I know what I'm talking about. I know what you are saying. It would be a welcome relief from the pains of this life, but first you have to live. We can't sit around and wait to die as I have done myself in the past. I used to pray to die, and I learned my lesson and stopped doing that. Because when you're stareing death in the face you kind of change your mind about things. Stay in that frame of mind and it will happen to you. Your loved ones will spend the rest of their lives in grief. That's not fair to them. Heaven is there for those who live for Christ on earth. It's ok to have a longing to be with Christ but to want to die to escape life on earth is not the answer.

I sat with a loaded shotgun, debating, I took a hand full of pills, and then when death stared me in the face God woke me up and made me realize what I had just done. He spared me with the help of a friend. Before I took those pills I demanded God take my life and told him if he didn't I would. He didn't, I took the pills. Believe me I knowwwwwwww how it feels but you have to refocus, dig into the scriptures, find joy in the Lord in living. We are to find our joy in the Lord. Life is painful in many ways, but we find relief in Christ. LIfe is worth living but you have to live it.

(((((Hugs)))))) to you both.

Posted by: Tweety at October 21, 2006 09:27 AM

I am not asking for me but about someone they say they have lived there life to the fullest, and he is ready but i am wondering does anyone know for sure if they are going to dry or just a figure of speech. do you know how they act different or do they answer if you can THANK YOU

Posted by: wherrell at November 2, 2006 12:21 PM

I use to watch a sciance channel it made me wonder what about our past our for fathers they use to think the earth was flat so what about G.O.D is he real I want him to be real but now I can't help to wonder what if when you die that is realy it you just die like your pet like a cow the food we eat your dead like it is dead the end is realy the end it makes me scared to die I hate to think ill never see family or touch or think anymore how can being dead be better the thing is where is GOD is he dead >?? if he is real why is man made to wonder ? why must it be this way>?? I hope Im wrong

Posted by: Ernie Hinson at July 4, 2007 04:00 PM

hi

Posted by: Stuart at January 14, 2008 06:44 AM

I know this is almost a year after you guys wrote this post but its the only one i could find so hears the dl.I know i am dieing not because a doctor told me so even though ive been to the emergency room 5 times because ive had lots of pains but because i fond blood in my stool and because i get sharp knife pains all the time and because im hurting now.But thats not what i want to say its much worse then that i think about god all the time and though sin i i feel ive lost him not only in my heart but in my soul of souls i know hes gone and ive had dreams about hell and the devil is a beast that just enjoys hurting the ones that lost god he laugh's i hear him now.But because i really feel like hell is a real place that is there and alot of us will go there ignorant to the fact that we will pay for our sins in the here after and that this life is a settling ground for good and evil to place us where we belong in the mighty powers that be in the here afters eyes.But mostly because of all thats said.Like what will happen to my cats when i die will they die a slow painful death after death come to claim the devils prize,<--ME.Or can God really show me the light so i can be free of my insane thought of death and danmnation?But what does happen my mom died from alchol and smokingand shemissed every sunday at church im not much better if not worse is she in hell being tourchedand raped and cut and burned and starved and chewwed apon forever because she was bad.You hear stories about how a man in hell looked up and saw heaven and asked god to come back to tell the people about how bad it is and God told him if they will not listen to my son jesus what makes you think they will listen you?That being gods answer of NOOOOOOOO.In other words you hear alot a bad things about god like he doesnt always forgive you even if you.But i have to say that dont make him bad now does it,Just right.All i know is im just waiting for my death and its coming soon maybe tonight maybe next week maybe even sooner and theres none who have exscaped it.I just hope God is so forgiving he can forgive me for comiting sucide.Not because I will with a knife oh no that would be to easy,But because ive poisoned myself with drugs and can not undo the damage that is coming.No one may ever get to read this but its worth a shot to let someone know what im going though.I dont like my friends and my family hates me deep inside because i was always a troubled child and never did understand them.But i did love them very much ive lost all respect for life and hope god forgives me for that too.I really dont like my guradian Mark I think hes not qualified to judge me,But being poor will place you under rule of someone else against your will everyone knows that.We all have someone to answer to here on earth but in heaven is the onl one worth answering too rememeber that.Too bad we all couldnt get along so many times ive pleaded with them for understanding there just wasnt any just judges and rulers of cotrolling revenge for hate against those who didnt get along with them the way they wanted too.so thats the Very Short of it for the sake of finding out if anyone hears me ill stop there and check back from time to time to see if i wasted my words.

Posted by: Stuart at January 14, 2008 07:03 AM

Please look after my mum and dad, my partner and my 2 boys connor and callum

Posted by: alex at March 7, 2008 01:03 AM

dieing is nothing that big but i think that it is the way to go. i also dont understand why people are afraid of it. Me i would just let it in.

Posted by: Ryan at April 17, 2008 10:59 AM

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