May 21, 2005
who am I?
Who am I? hmm thats a good question and something I dont really know the answer to. I dont even know what to call myself. I answer heavens if someone asks me what my name is but is that who I really am? I have no likes or dislikes completly of my own. I feel what others say I am supposed to feel. When someone asks me how I am I am tempted to answer, How bout if you just tell me what I am supposed to be feeling. I just really dont know who I am anymore other than a walking zombie that dont really matter if I am here anymore or not. I'm not suicidal, I'm just trying to figure out why I am here yet. Other than to raise my 2 kids. I feel so empty inside.
Posted by Heavensdaughter on May 21, 2005 06:12 PM
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I can understand the empty, sweet friend. I have been going through antidepressant withdrawal and switch for the past 8 weeks, and just the last 2 days I feel ok to be up. But I'm empty inside...my head is empty, I've been bedridden for about 6 weeks, I don't have any knowledge or input for a conversation. My gut feels empty..I can't explain,.. it just doesn't feel right. And the worst, my heart feels empty. The depression that hit and had me bedridden along with the pain and fatigue had me suicidal, questioning my worth, and now I have no idea what I am worth or what I am to do next. I can't even really talk to my husband other than household stuff (and not much of that).
I have nothing inside of me.
Usually I'm full of love and positivity....I can't find it.
So I understand for now. Let's Pray for the Lord to refill us with His Love...that's the only thing I think can help.
Hugs and Blessings, Judy
Posted by: judy at May 23, 2005 12:52 AM