November 06, 2005
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I finally got in here again to do some posting. It took me over a month to figure out i had my inbox set to exclussive and thats why the password wasnt going through. can you say *DUH!* i need a secretary for my brain. someone to file everything nice and neat so i can remember stuff better. Maybe someone to colorcode the memories too. I could use different colors for different memories, maybe even file the bad ones wayyyyy back somewhere. Somewhere that i wouldnt have to remember them all the time. maybe things wouldnt hurt so much on the inside then. I'd settle though for just being able to remember things like what i was talking about in the middle of a conversation, or where i put things, or even who i am. I know i got this body and i'm supposed to be 23, but i dont feel 23. I keep lookin at the calendar thinkin maybe its wrong. like maybe its 95 and not 2005. all the adults just looks soo big compared to me. i feel like i've been pushed out from a plane and 10,000 feet and droped into the middle of nowhere and been told * ok your on your own* with no supplies or anything
we got 5 weeks inbetween seeing our t this time. we are on week 4 this week. its not supposed to be that way though. we are supposed to see her every 2 weeks. *sighs* its almost over though, just a lil over a week left till we go in.
Posted by Heavensdaughter on November 6, 2005 08:05 PM