Pulling all day
Well, I was pull-free until about September 22nd, so I think that was almost four weeks pull-free. Awesome! Too bad I crashed and burned. Lately I'm pulling during the day too, and not just at night. Not sure why this is. Is there any rhyme or reason to my disorder? I don't think so. ARGH. I just have to wake up each morning hoping and trying, and I think that's all that matters.
I cut my hair really short to try and re-motivate myself. Hmmm. Didn't work. I had to pull the old eyeliner trick...coloring in my bald spots on the sides so that they can't be seen. Bummer. Hate that. Doesn't stop me from pulling just yet though.
I was trying on some clothes this morning for a vacation that we are going on. Scary how my clothes don't fit right. I get too comfortable in my same-thing-everyday clothes. I forget how fat I am unless I try on the things that don't fit anymore, or haven't fit since summer 2005.
I want to become more accountable with my eating and I think I can do that by posting on this journal. I'll be back tonight to post more. There are a few more things I'm going to be changing about my life. Nothing drastic (like a divorce...sorry to disappoint anyone :-) ), just a few little things that I think will help me feel I have more control of my life and myself.
Until next time.
Posted by Cody on October 22, 2007 2:00 PM
