January 17, 2005
phonecall from deb
Deb called today and Amy tried so hard to hang up on her. We were all shaking so hard from being afraid and we still have not stopped shaking yet. She didnt even say anything bad this time but everyone is just so scared yet from before. Tott is a mess and she wants her nuk but I cant find it anywhere. I'd go get her a new one but I cant drive either. Amy wants to drive but I dont know how I would explain a 15 year old driving to the cops when she gets pulled over. They have pills for everything, why dont they have a pill that instantly makes all the bad stuff go away yet? I wish I could just fly away.
my mom and I got in a big argument today too. I told her I wanted to homeschool my kids and she gave me a speech on how hard it was gonna be. I felt like she was putting me down. She said she didnt mean it that way but it sure felt like it. I love my mom and I hate it when we have a fight.
Carrie made us soup, its really sort of interesting but I dont care cause I didnt have to cook. now if only she would clean the apartment for me too, that would be really great.
We go see our therepist tomorrow morning. I dont know how I am gonna get out of bed and get both kids ready in time. I'm worried though cause Jill wants to talk to her for the first time and my mom wants to sit in the whole session. My mom doesnt really understand jill or the others and just says I need to grow up when they are out. maybe she will just be in for a lil while and then leave. I'm going to bring paper along for Jill to write and color on if she wants to. She wants to take k.C our teddy bear with too so I am going to try and remember him too.
Posted by Heavensdaughter on January 17, 2005 9:02 PM