January 13, 2006
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I've been putting things off for years, finding ways around it, finding any excuse possible to denounce what i knew was true. I couldn't have this because i do eat at times. I couldn't have this because i don't count calories. The list goes on and on. But i do have it. My body is proof of the anorexia. It's written on my face. I'm eating enough to survive, not enough to thrive. In the last 2 months i dropped 2 sizes after already being underweight. This is a battle though that i need to overcome on my own. I'm not sure that i am strong enough to. I feel so alone in this. This can't possibly be what it is. I keep looking for any excuse that i can to dismiss it, anything at all.
My own kids have been sick for the past 2 weeks. It's really hard being a single parent without support. It's not an easy job at all, especially raising a child with special needs.
Posted by Heavensdaughter on January 13, 2006 04:26 AM