Health Diaries > Dissociative Identity Disorder > Butterfly Team
March 01, 2006
still not sleeping...
i'm not really sure what's going on with this not sleeping thing. it's been a few days now. i was so exhausted all day today. i felt like a zombie walking around. when i got home tonight, my eyes were so heavy and my head was pounding. i eventually went to bed and fell asleep around 11:00pm. guess how long i slept? 15 MINUTES!!!! now it's after 12:30 and i'm back up. i'm wide awake yet feeling exhausted. i just........i don't know - feel like screaming! today was ash wednesday. not sure if that means anything. i've gotten a lot of information from alters about good friday being a bad day that things were done to me but i'm not sure about ash wednesday. i hate that these stupid cult members have taken so many holidays and normal things - like full moons and twisted all of their meanings around for me. i know the date 3/3 is a trigger. it's the double digit thing. oh wait. 3 is a big cult number. i've had big reactions to things with the number 3. it just suddenly hit me that friday is 3/3. is this why i can't sleep? i have no clue. but i suppose someone inside does!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh. i can't deal with this.
Posted by Butterflyteam on March 1, 2006 09:28 PM
I'm going through the exact same thing with the non-sleep if you figure out a way to fix this plz email me.
Posted by: Michael Silent at March 10, 2006 06:06 AM
