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September 1, 2004

far, far away.......

It is me who is present, yet I feel so far away. I don't even know if I can explain it. I'm inside my head, but I am so far back in it. It's weird. I don't think any words could describe it so I'm not even going to try.

I just can't let go of this depressed, hopeless feeling. It's going on several days now. I've been back at work this week - setting up my classroom. It's not going well. I can't get focused or organized. I sit there in the middle of my room doing nothing. I can't make decisions about how I want to set things up. It was frustrating in the beginning but now......I feel like I could care less. I know that's not really true. I enjoy teaching. I care a great deal about my students and want the environment that they spend their day in to be safe and warm and nurturing. But right now, I just feel like I don't care about anything. I want to crawl into bed and never come out.

Posted by Butterflyteam on September 1, 2004 11:16 PM