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May 25, 2006

feeling disoriented...

i saw donna today for a very long session yet i'm feeling now like i wasn't even there at all. i used to feel like that when i would switch a lot and alters would use up my time with her, but today nobody else was out. at least i don't think so. i remember feeling overwhelmed and confused and spacey when i was there. i was having a hard time detemining if it was the present or the past even though i did know i was with her so it couldn't have been the past. i guess i'm still feeling a bit disoriented. it's hard because now i'm feeling separation anxiety and abandonment stuff too. i'm not sure why. i feel like i want to be with her even though i just spent so much time with her. i feel like i'm going crazy because i don't feel grounded at all. am i 3 or 5 or 7 or 16 or 31 years old? is it 1980 or 2006? i'm so confused..........

Posted by Butterflyteam on May 25, 2006 8:28 PM