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June 26, 2006

not feeling grounded....

i'm not feeling so great - emotionally, that is. finished school on friday. uncomfortable with the transition. feeling very anxious. saw donna tonight but feel like i didn't even see her. i see her tomorrow for a group but i don't even want to go. we started to talk about it tonight but it feels unfinished. i don't like (in fact, i hate) our schedule for the summer. i feel like i have no connection to her anymore and that i barely get to see her. i don't feel grounded. i feel very insecure and unsafe. i talked about some things in a group tonight that i now feel so foolish about. i feel like i shouldn't be feeling the way i do about certain things and i'm stupid to be nervous about some upcoming things. i feel completely inadequate about everything. i can't do this for another two months. i can't. i feel like i'm talking but no one is listening. that no one is ever listening so i feel like i should just shut up. i feel like i don't matter to anyone.

Posted by Butterflyteam on June 26, 2006 9:43 PM