Health Diaries > Dissociative Identity Disorder > Butterfly Team
June 26, 2006
not feeling grounded....
i'm not feeling so great - emotionally, that is. finished school on friday. uncomfortable with the transition. feeling very anxious. saw donna tonight but feel like i didn't even see her. i see her tomorrow for a group but i don't even want to go. we started to talk about it tonight but it feels unfinished. i don't like (in fact, i hate) our schedule for the summer. i feel like i have no connection to her anymore and that i barely get to see her. i don't feel grounded. i feel very insecure and unsafe. i talked about some things in a group tonight that i now feel so foolish about. i feel like i shouldn't be feeling the way i do about certain things and i'm stupid to be nervous about some upcoming things. i feel completely inadequate about everything. i can't do this for another two months. i can't. i feel like i'm talking but no one is listening. that no one is ever listening so i feel like i should just shut up. i feel like i don't matter to anyone.
Posted by Butterflyteam on June 26, 2006 09:43 PM
You matter a great deal, and none of your feelings are stupid. Feelings are feelings, after all, not thoughts. They are what they are. Go to group, if you can. At least, you won't be alone. And, who knows? Maybe, sooner or later, one of those people will become a friend. Best wishes for tomorrow. The Real Me
Posted by: The Real Me at June 27, 2006 03:05 PM
