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February 15, 2007

snow day (actually.....ice day)

my school is closed today. we didn't get a lot of snow yesterday but everything is covered by a sheet of ice. driving home yesterday was a disaster so i guess it was good that i didn't have to drive to work this morning.

next week is winter break and we have the whole week off. i have been saying that i can't wait to have next week off because i'm worn out and feel like i've been pushed to my limit and just need some time off. so you would think i would be happy having today off but i would actually rather be in school today. i've been having a very hard time the past few days. a new memory and changes in stephanie that i'm confused by have left me really struggling. when i'm having a hard time, i do better if i'm in school and i'm distracted rather than at home. it's only 8:00am and i'm already dreading the rest of the day. it would be good if i could sleep and just make several hours go by, but i haven't been able to fall back asleep. i have plenty of work to do for school but i see myself not even wanting to go near it already. my head is too scattered and emotional and i feel myself freaking out already.

i don't think this is going to be a good day. i'm going to try really hard to get a grip and turn this around but i'm not very hopeful at the moment.

Posted by Butterflyteam on February 15, 2007 5:15 AM